Why Self-Harm and Outbursts Are Common in Borderline Personality Disorder Aren’t About Manipulation
Why self-harm and outbursts aren’t about manipulation. Borderline Personality Disorder Aren’t About Manipulation The stigma associated with being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), which can even be seen among medical professionals, is among the most depressing aspects of having this disorder.
They believe that all I do is to get my “needs fulfilled,” or, to say it differently, each action is designed to provoke an answer from someone else. This, precisely, encompasses all behaviour that involves harming self as a means to solicit help or to share one’s distress with other people and not the act of self-punishment, which can be thought of as a form of self-punishment or a method to express the most intense emotional feelings of guilt towards self.
While I was undergoing dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT), It was clear that this was what I experienced for me. Psychologists believed that I could manipulate other people through self-mutilation or different extreme emotional responses to get desired reactions, such as feeling loved or being able to feel sympathy. The 24-hour rule is used for this type of therapy to stop such behaviour. This rule says that if a patient diagnosed with BPD commits self-harm or suicidal behaviour or suicidal behaviour, they must not have contact with the services for 24 hours. I observed in my interactions with myself and with others, I met that people could internalize their pain more than they did and often conceal high-risk behaviours.
It was true for myself and others. If it is the situation that people who have borderline personality disorder have damaged themselves for the pursuit of “attention-seeking,” then why do they cause harm to themselves without being aware of it? I realized that the notion of those with BPD is not valid. It isn’t to suggest that engaging in risky activities to provoke an earful from other people doesn’t happen; however, the disorder is so complex that it isn’t just concerned with interpersonal relationships.
What I’ve discovered was that I’m highly affected by emotional dysregulation. This means that I can feel emotions in all their intensity and that my feelings can change rapidly. This has made me conclude that I am deeply affected by emotional dysfunction. It could also potentially cause a worsening of co-occurring conditions such as bipolar disorder and anxiety. Disorder.
My inability to control such rapidly changing and intense emotions with a sense of balance is the cause of most of the tension that could arise within my relationships. I am acutely aware of the adverse effects that my outward expression of symptoms could impact my family and friends and trigger anxiety of being abandoned, as in “people might quit my side because my health issues are too challenging for me to handle.”
This anxiety can be caused because I am aware of the adverse effects that expressing my symptoms outwardly can affect those I love dearly. Being the person with the disorder(s) is problematic because it is a constant struggle to keep the need to establish boundaries that ensure my family and I are safe. My life is like the overwhelming anxiety is sucking it down because I feel more adverse emotions than happy ones. That means I think there is an increased proportion of negative emotions over positive ones.
I’ve spent my entire life experiencing this endless and unfathomable pain, and I don’t find any relief. Since the overwhelming sadness I feel each day is present for such an extended duration; I have several instances when I question why I even bother to live my life. The intensity of the things I endure helps clarify why I experience such an abundance of public outbursts. When the situation becomes too difficult for me to manage, I’m already functioning at the highest ability to deal with the situation.
Thus, displaying symptoms to such extreme levels isn’t necessarily a sign that I expect my family and loved ones to be able to meet my demands. My awareness of the consequences of taking care of someone who is always at risk is so intense that I might be ashamed of myself for being this open.
It is because my awareness of myself is that it is so. I am not interested in manipulating other people more than others because I don’t wish to put pressure on my relationships with people I cherish. More importantly, my actions show that I suffer from an overabundance of emotional anxiety. My actions are not attempts to trigger the response I need; instead, they are a response to the utter emotional pain I am feeling. I am aware that having borderline personality disorder has more about difficulty controlling one’s emotions than the misunderstood theories that psychologists can offer that contribute to the stigma surrounding it.
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